Soft. Broken. Moldable

In some manner of speaking I've hardened my heart. I had continued in practices that I knew where wrong and in doing so callused my heart against hearing the voice of God. Whatever gave me the idea that doing so would be healthy, fun, or worth it, I don't know. But I have to say that I desire that those practices end here. I am serious about serving God with all my heart! I am not a flake, fake or halfway convinced.
Today I took the first steps in taking a stand...
Will it be a struggle? Yes!
Will I be committed? 110%
Will it be a worth it? Yes!

1Corinthians 15:58
Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain.
In His strength,
-Mini Mug

Feelings that don't define me

Uggg. so lets just run down the list of things I feel right now.

Frustrated.Overwhelmed.Impatient.Worthless.Stressed.Defeated.Mad.Aggravated.Tired.Disappointed.Lost.Sad.Doubtful.
Upset.Small.Insignificant.Foolish.Stupid.Crushed.Ordinary.Confused.Letdown.Inferior.Weak.Blind.Shortsighted.Superficial.

But I will not let things feelings define how I live my life. I refuse to let this world definition of success ruin my self confidence. I may not be the smartest, quickest, most personable individual on the face of this earth, but that does not mean that I am in anyway insignificant or worthless. No I don't win everytime, but I will not let my self quit. I don't quit, I can't quit. I have been amazingly and undeservingly been graced with the potential to be something great were it matters- in the kingdom. And I will not let myself grow weary in reaching that goal. These feelings of doubts will not define me and my attitude.
I refuse.. I REFUSE...

God has my path.. and it's like the light of dawn.. It just keeps getting brighter and brighter! I know this.. And I defiantly believe this...Jesus you Light up my sky. because of you I am..
At Peace.Blessed.Loved.Forgiven.Carried.Strengthened.Lifted Up.Helped.Filled with Joy.Saved.Heaven Bound.Supported.
Victorious.Humbled.Righteous.Patient.Faithful.Thankful.Filled with Awe and Praise.Floored.Ecstatic.I am Heaven Bound!